me.....? blog....? naaahhhh

as good as GAS gets...

2007-05-09T20:04:00.001+08:00

recently an old interest has been creeping into my lifestyle - photography. i have always been fascinated with the way a simple scene can be interpreted in a thousand ways, merely by capturing and embedding it on paper. back in the days where there's only film, it wasn't easy to pursue this hobby. i can only imagine the rolls of film - wasted because i didn't get the exposure right or my focus wasn't spot on.. blah blah blah... there wasn't even photoshop back then. so i had to put off the idea.. mainly for financial reasons... and besides, my first film slr was stolen so it may have been a sign not to pursue it.

along came digital.. yes!!! i thought this was a good time to pick up the camera and start shooting great pics(with the help of image editors.. almost every shot is a good one!) yet again, the ever faithful quote stares me right in the eye - "better gear, better results!".. wtf!!! now that i have an entry level cam everything is pointing to better upgrades and more often, expensive ones. GAS, GAS, and more GAS!!!!

i have always believed that expensive equipment can do wonders but i also know that we all have to make do with what we have. having expensive gear doesn't necessarily mean that you'll be a great musician or a photographer without putting in much effort. it takes a lot of time.. if we just practice hard enough.

when people admire a picture in a gallery, no one ever asks about the tools used to paint it. instead, they ask about the painter, his technique.

i may sound like i'm sourgraping our opinions may differ.. but to me, it's just the way it is.

cool stuff!!!

2007-04-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

so far.. so good... just travellin' along the path where the road leads me...

2007-01-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

one more year and i'm off the calendar...well at least pasok pa rin sa lotto =) so what has changed since last year? not much i guess. i'm still the same old me.. stuck at 18.. not acting my age... feeling bata - isip bata... he he.. still suck at playing the guitar.. next year kaya, ganito pa rin ba ako? tama na nga to.. wala namang saysay pinagsasabi ko.. hirap talaga ng tambay sa bahay

2007-01-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

feeling grumpy.. don't know why... i just deleted my myspace account... soon i might be cancelling most of my free accounts (IM's, emails, etc..etc... yada yada yada)... must be signs of old age? naaahh

moving down the highways of my life
makin' sure i stay to the right
moving down the highways of my life
so i shan't be concerned
with the other side of the road

reading all the signs along the way
knowing where i am not what they say
my destination's closer day by day
so i can't be concerned
with the other side of the road
lada da da da.. down the highway.. la dada...

beyond the horizon...

2006-12-31T12:38:00.000+08:00

it's been four months since my last post. christmas is over and tomorrow will be another "new year". kakaalis lang ng mga mga bata and i already miss them. can't wait to go back home.. balik sa pinas...

2006-08-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

"A positive anything is better than a negative nothing - Elbert Hubbard"

Ilang buwan na walang post. Oh well.. at least nabisita ko uli to.

2006-03-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

uy tagal ko nang di nag post dito ah... anyway, just got back from thailand a few weeks ago.

meron din palang gardenia dun!!?? he he

bump...

2006-01-19T06:42:00.000+08:00

more than a month and still no update... whew...

2005-12-04T14:02:00.000+08:00

just got back to the apartment. i checked the temperature and it's 12 degrees inside.. outside it's 7 degrees (nung 1:30pm yun...yay)

ima ame ga futte iru.... bbbrrrrr.. samui ne.

first week in japan

2005-11-20T09:11:00.000+08:00

haaay, 6 more weeks to go. at least aabot ako sa bagong taon sa pinas.

eto CR sa Shinjuku Maynds building. ok di ba, kitang kita ka pag umihi ka.. he he

2005-11-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

ambition is the last refuge of failure
- Oscar Wilde

one down

2005-10-05T12:05:00.000+08:00

i just finished reading "The Alchemist"... ano naman kaya ang isusunod ko...

another day...

2005-10-04T17:25:00.000+08:00

day shift na naman... haaayyyy..

"...when each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives everyday that the sun rises."

2005-09-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

haaay.. wala na bang iba? puro kanta na lang ba ang mai po post ko dito? oh well... new project ko, read all paolo coehlo books... kelan ko kaya mauumpisahan? teka.. review muna para sa linux.

reminiscin' the nineties...

2005-09-14T02:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

2005-09-06T05:23:00.000+08:00

night shift na naman.. nothing to do but listen to orange and lemons...sigh

Forty mile town

2005-08-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

I got a way I can find you,
Down the melody ranch, I know you're there most everyday,
That's where you like to spend some time alone.
I need to talk to you,
Tell you what I feel, like warm hellos in the morning mist,
And you're the magic that turns my heart around.

Seems to me, we're really living way too fast,
Oh when we should let the story of love last,
Sometimes I just want to go and drift away...
And move onto some forty mile town.

I got a way I can see you,
Close my eyes and start to watch the ancient waters flow,
Like a crystal dance that paupers know so well.
That's the way kings keep dreamin',
Hold their head up high and live below forty mile skies,
The way that it can be in ocean towns.

Things of this world, guess we never really own;
Oh that mountain falls, and then we're goin' home.
We should try to make the best and get away...
And work on towards a forty mile town.
Seems to me we really need to feel love more,
Oh, an ordinary smile opens the door.
Sometimes all I want to do is dream away...
And wake up in some forty mile town.

2005-08-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the world looks perfect
Nothing to rearrange.
Sometimes you just get a feeling
Like you need some kind of change.
No matter what the odds are this time
Nothing's gonna stand in my way
This flame in my heart
And a long lost friend
Gives every dark street a light at the end

Standing tall, on the wings of my dream
Rise and fall, on the wings of my dream

The rain and thunder
The wind and haze
I'm bound for better days
It's my life and my dream
Nothing's going to stop me now

2005-08-23T12:07:00.000+08:00

isn't it ironic...don't you think???

2005-08-17T08:13:00.000+08:00

you live... you learn...

2005-08-10T08:45:00.000+08:00

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he’s gone

No one but me can save myself
but it’s too late
Now I can’t think
think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though
it never existed
Death greets me warm
now I will just say goodbye

2005-08-02T09:24:00.000+08:00

back in the world of the daywalkers... yesss....

My little bombshell

2005-07-27T04:16:00.000+08:00

o di ba... naka pose pa talaga!

2005-07-21T02:47:00.000+08:00

"taena bat kasi kelangan pa tumanda"

bakit nga ba? isa to sa mga katanungang bumabagabag sa lahat ng mga nakakatanda sa ating lipunan. naks ang lalim. at bakit ko naman naisipan isulat yan? wala lang. napag usapan lang namin ng isa kong tropa sa yupangco forum habang nagpapatay ng oras dito sa office. sa sobrang kabatuhan eh kung ano ano na ang napag uusapan namin dito. mula sa mga keyboard shortcut, VB, hanggang sa pagbabanda pati na rin trabaho. hanggang sa mapag usapan na rin ang tungkol sa edad. ewan ko ba. nung sinabi nya yang linyang yan napaisip din ako.

sabi nga nila, rhetorical question na raw yan (kung ano man ang ibig sabihin ng "rhetorical" eh wala na akong balak alamin pa). sabayan pa ng tugtog sa crossover (online radio ng 105.1) eh lalo lang akong inantok at napa-senti ng kaunti. na alala ko tuloy nung high school pa ako pati na rin nung college. ang saya ng buhay nun. wala masyadong iniintindi. pasok lang sa iskul at problemahin ang baon. pag walang ginagawa, mag gitara mag isa o maki jam na lang. haay ang saya nung araw. hindi kagaya ngayon, problema mo na yung pagkita ng pera, problema mo pa trabaho mo. pati na nga kung paano ka papasok sa trabaho problema mo pa rin.

akala ko nung estudyante pa ako, maka graduate lang ako ok na. solb na. wala ng problema. hindi pala.

dati nung high school pa ako, halos lahat ng kasama ko nagpapatanda ng edad. kasi pag mas matanda ka na magagawa mo na lahat ng gusto mo. nung college, ok na. nasa tamang edad na kami. lahat ng bagay pwede na naming gawin. o di ba ang saya. pero ngayon, lahat yata ng kaedad ko eh nagpapabata. kung nung dati pag tinanong mo kung ilang taon na sya ang sasabihin sa iyo "oi 18 na ako", ngayon iba na ang isasagot sa iyo. maswerte ka kung sagutin ka pa o hindi ka murahin pag inasar mo sya sa edad nya. napaka ironic.

na alala ko pa nung first job ko. lahat ng katrabaho ko eh kasing edad ko lang. lahat kami nun fresh grad. ngayon pag tumingin ako sa paligid ko, isa na yata ako sa mga pinakamatanda dito. onti na nga lang ang ka age ko dito eh. buti na lang walang tumatawag sa akin ng kuya dito.

ang hirap talaga ng tumatanda. parang araw araw nadadagdagan ang problema. pati ba naman edad pinoproblema ko pa. hay nako. bakit nga ba kailangan pang tumanda?

2005-07-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you trust them, too - even when you're in the dark.

2005-07-13T04:14:00.000+08:00

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

2005-07-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

" What we've got here is failure to communicate. Some men you just can't reach, so you get what we had here last week which is the way he wants it. Well, he gets it. And I don't like it any more than you men."

2005-07-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

“Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.”

“Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.”

2005-07-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 weeks since my last post.... 3 ebooks na ang nabasa ko (all Dan Brown).. eto wala lang... night shift na naman... first day ko ngayon... kaka antok...hohuummmm...zzzzzZZ

Nuno Clinic

2005-06-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

well, he's the reason why i shifted from piano to guitar. and last thursday, June 9, we saw him when he conducted a clinic at the Yupangco main office in Makati. the clinic turned into a mini concert and all i can say is - Nuno still rocks!!!

here's what i got from that event - a signed poster... cool huh!!!!

Nicole's 1st Bday Party

2005-05-31T11:08:00.000+08:00

family pic

Nicole with Mom

Nicole with Dad

birthday cake!!!

Tuesday

2005-05-31T10:46:00.000+08:00

it's Tuesday.. i'm late... started reading Tuesdays with Morrie... coincidence..??

"once you know how to die, you know how to live"
- Morrie Schwartz

2005-05-30T09:08:00.000+08:00

this just isn't my month.... bad month...

Life...

2005-05-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

Forrest Gump once said that life is like a box of chocolates - you'll never know what you're gonna get.

Well, I've learned that it's also like my bag. It's never large enough to hold everything I want to put in it.

Sacrifice...

2005-05-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

"Sacrifice is a part of life. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."

- the five people you meet in heaven

2005-05-04T09:09:00.000+08:00

whew... been out for almost a week.. darn kidney stone....what did i miss?

And the winner is...

2005-04-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

We have a new pope...

News says that he suffered from a brain hemmorage in '91 but completely recovered. He's 78 now and i'm thinking that we'll be expecting a new pope in.. about 10 years? We'll just wait and see...

What we are...

2005-04-13T03:00:00.000+08:00

Taken from CSI Season 5 Episode 14
=======================================================
GRISSOM: A brown hair with a follicular tag. A person's entire identity balled up in a few nanograms of matter.

SOFIA: Assuming one's identity can be wholly quantified by our DNA.

GRISSOM: Well, genetically, it can. We're completely programmed as soon as the sperm hits the egg.

SOFIA: So we're defined at a cellular level?

GRISSOM: More or less.

SOFIA: No. Identity is the totality of our life experiences and our brain neurons process our relationship to the world and each other.

GRISSOM: I stand corrected. DNA is what we are, not who we are.

SOFIA: What we are never changes. Who we are never stops changing.

GRISSOM: Yeah. Whether we like it or not.
=======================================================

Bruce...

2005-04-07T02:30:00.000+08:00

BRUCE : How do you make someone love you when you can't effect free will?

GOD : Welcome to my world, son. You come up with an answer to that one, you let me know.

- Bruce Almighty (2003)

nice question... but will we ever find the answer to this? if you do, let me know...

what's new?

2005-04-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

Tuesday.. start of the work week.. for me at least... well, i've been out for a few days and tambak na naman ang mailbox ko (it was my off from friday to monday)...so what's new? April fools 2005, the Pope died, and me..? i'm still at work...

People get ready

2005-03-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

here's a nice, "soulful" song from Curtis Mayfield. i guess you can also categorize this as a gospel/inspirational song. i personally like George Lynch's version of this song from the Jeff Beck tribute album. anyone wanna sing along with me...??

People get ready, there's a train comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
You don't need no ticket you just thank the Lord

People get ready, there's a train to Jordan
Picking up passengers coast to coast
Faith is the key, open the doors and board them
There's hope for all among those loved the most

There ain't no room for the hopeless sinner
Who would hurt all mankind just to save his own
Have pity on those whose chances grow thinner
For there is no hiding place against the kingdom's throne

People get ready there's a train comin'
You don't need no baggage, just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
You don't need no ticket, just thank the Lord.

2005-03-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

Taken from CSI(Vegas) Season 5 Episode 2
========================================
SARAH: I heard you finally lost your virginity - first autopsy. How was it?

GREG: It was fine. How was your first time? How did you react?

SARAH: I puked.

GREG: I didn't puke.

SARAH: Way to go tough guy.

GREG: It was weird seeing a body laying on a table like that. Doc Robbins just pulling out his insides until it was all empty.

SARAH: Were you expecting a ball of light?

GREG: Doc Robbins said, "That's all we really are."

SARAH: It's what we do that counts.
========================================

think about it...once you remove the intestines, bladder, heart and whatever you may find inside, you'll see that we're nothing more than a soft shell... mere skin protecting flesh...nothing extraordinary inside... but what is it that makes us so special? they say it's not much of what we are but what we do that makes us unique... is it?

Holy Week

2005-03-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

Maundy Thursday and I'm still in the office. right now i'm still thinking about what the lenten season means to me. so much thoughts... don't have much time to write (sagabal talaga itong trabaho sa blog =P).

this just reminds me.. i was at carriedo a few weeks back trying to get an NBI clearance. actually i tried to get it at Park Square in Makati but the staff there told me to go to the main office because the machine there can't read the barcode on my old clearance. so much for the "High-Tech" machine...galing talaga ng pinoy (sarcastic laugh)..

so there i was, in carriedo waiting for my clearance to be released. i arrived at 1pm and they told me i would have it by 4pm. ok.. 3 hours to spare.. now what? aga ko pa naman dito tapos maghihintay ako ng tatlong oras? after almost 2 hours of walking around quiapo, the p-dvd areas, raon, etc... i decided to take a rest.

well, Quiapo church was the only place where i can sit down for free...ok.. i was there not to pray but just have a welcome rest to ease my feet which are hurtin' real bad by now... di lang paa... pati yata mga daliri ko sa paa eh naninigas na...

during my "rest" there, marami akong nakita... merong nakaupo.. nagdadasal, merong lumalakad ng paluhod, merong mga batang naglalaro, nagtitinda ng sampaguita, mga estudyanteng sasaglit para magdasal (exams nila siguro).. pansin ko lang iba iba sila ng style ng pagdadasal... merong nakapikit, merong parang tulala at nakatingin sa wala, merong gumagalaw ang labi na wala namang sinasabi at kung ano ano pa. yung mga tao dun.. they are all praying to a God they have never seen but have faith in...

ayun, sa pagkakaupo ko dun, napa isip ako... is there really a God? i'm not an aetheist nor an antichrist. i spent the last 5 years of my student-life in Don Bosco.. there was a time na araw araw eh nakaka attend ako ng mass...you would say that it would've opened my eyes to christiandom and make me christ-like in nature..oo, siguro religious ako nung bata pa ako.... but it was during college where i saw the hypocrisy of the catholic church.. that the church really isn't infallible

don't get me wrong... gaya nga ng sabi ko, i am not an anti christ.. it's just that my experiences has molded me into what i am now.. changed my whole self and my belief... i am not blocking out the whole concept of a Divine Saviour coming to save us...i may find it hard to believe.. my faith may have been washed away but there's something left in me.. and that is hope...

siguro naman may mga tao ring katulad ko.. siguro yung mga tao sa simbahan, lahat sila umaasa...hoping for salvation, for a better life...

ngayon kung ako ang tatanungin mo ng "Do you believe in God?", ito lang ang masasabi ko. i will not say no.. neither will i answer yes...all i can say is ..."sana"

sana nga meron, sana nga totoong may Diyos...

ikaw? Do you believe in God? holy week na...time for us to think about our lives, our faith and continue hoping...

monday blues.. again

2005-03-22T04:48:00.000+08:00

aarrgghh.... my body's sore all over... we had a sports activity yesterday (Sunday) and it's one of the rare times when I get to engage in sports events... my thigh and legs hurt.. arms stiff....the pain.... nooo.. the pain.....

another weekend

2005-03-11T03:28:00.000+08:00

2 weeks.. not much has happened.. looking forward to a long weekend.. weeeeeeeeeeee

pix from our road trip

2005-03-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

here's one taken in Vigan's Crisologo street

here's my wifey

o di ba pang model ang dating? =)

i'm baaaaccckkkkkk.......

2005-02-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

whew. kakapagod. been to a roadtrip last weekend. first time ko mag drive for more than 600kms in a day. kayang kaya naman pala - isang red bull lang ang katapat. i'll post the details later pag di na masyado busy. for now, it's "back to work slave!!!" for me. =)

3 day work week?

2005-02-21T08:51:00.000+08:00

monday na naman.. looking forward to a 3 day work week (wala ako pasok sa 24 eh) =)

2005-02-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

haaay buhay... parang life.... lunes na naman.. ano na naman kay ang mangyayari sa araw na to at sa mga susunod pa... ABANGAN!!!

eto nga pala youngest ko..smile baby!! =)

mommy and baby

eto pa.. aakbay sana ako kay pareng Jollibee eh

weekend...

2005-02-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

yes, friday na naman.. well, it's already saturday actually... ano na naman kaya ang magagawa ko this weekend aside from sleep, eat, play with my kids, play ps2... i wish i could have longer weekends... oh well... i guess i'll have to enjoy it while it lasts... it'll be "back to work, slave" for me come Monday

2005-02-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

darn...i can't get this song out of my head. it's been rattling inside my head since friday.. seems to stick whenever i hear this song. hhmm.. might as well listen to it...

All the late night bargains have been struck
Between the satin beaus and their belles
And prehistoric garbage trucks
Have the city to themselves
Echoes roars dinosaurs
They're all doing the monster mash
And most of the taxis and the whores
Are only taking calls for cash

I don't know how it happened
It all took place so quick
But all I can do is hand it to you
And your latest trick

My door was standing open
Security was laid back and lax
But it was only my heart got broken
You must have had a pass key made out of wax
You played robbery with insolence
And I played the blues in twelve bars down Lover's Lane
And you never did have the intelligence to use
The twelve keys handing off my chain

I don't know how it happened
It all took place so quick
But all I can do is hand it to you
And your latest trick

Now it's past last call for alcohol
Past recall has been here and gone
The landlord finally paid us all
The satin jazzmen have put away their horms
And we're standing outside of this wonderland
Looking so bereaved and so bereft
Like a Bowery bum when he finally understands
The bottle's empty and there's nothing left

I don't know how it happened
It was faster than the eyes can flick
But all I can do is hand it to you
And your latest trick

monday blues...

2005-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

haaaayy.... different day, same.... you know what.. i guess this song says it all...

If there's one thing in my life that's missing
It's the time that I spend alone
Sailing on the cool and bright clear water
Lots of those friendly people
And they're showing me ways to go
And I never want to lose their inspiration
Time for a cool change
I know that it's time for a cool change
And now that my life is so prearranged
I know that it's time for a cool change

Well, I was born in the sign of water
And it's there that I feel my best
The albatross and the whales they are my brothers
It's kind of a special feeling
When you're out on the sea alone
Staring at the full moon, like a lover

Time for a cool change
I know that it's time for a cool change
Now that my life is so prearranged
I know that it's time for a cool change

I've never been romantic
And sometimes I don't care
I know it may sound selfish
But let me breathe the air

another useless post

2005-01-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

it's been months since i created this account and still, this is just my third post... ain't that great? so what's new? i just found another version of the coke commercial (i wish) from the uk site.

I Wish

i wonder how they get the bag to hold that much coke bottles without the contents spilling.. hhmmm =)

2004-11-30T13:46:00.000+08:00

Ok, I'm back from India. Here's a pic taken when we went to visit Taj Mahal.

my 1st blog

2004-11-19T06:26:00.000+08:00

So I created my first blog.. now what..??